| Refusing
      to kill with drugsby Isko Pineda, 12 March 2005
 
 I grew up in an area where many people die not because of any disease but
      because they are poor. People do not have  
      access to medical care because it is hardly available and because
      it is expensive. So as a kid I always dreamt of becoming a doctor so that
      one day I could be of service to my own people. But medical courses are
      expensive, and because two of my sisters were already studying, my parents
      persuaded me to take up a teaching course instead.
 
 I spent four years in the university preparing myself to become a good
      teacher and indeed I considered myself a good teacher when I became one. I
      was true to the task of giving my best in facilitating the education of
      children to grow up as decent people. I was fully conscious at all times
      of my responsibility to live my life in a way that mirrors what I wanted
      the children to be. Sad to say, of the professional group in my country,
      the teachers are the most overworked and exploited. The very big
      responsibility expected of them is not matched by the salary they receive.
      It was simply not enough for me to live on, even though I was teaching in
      an expensive private school. This prompted my decision to take better
      paying work. Thus started my journey from caring work to work where caring
      is anathema. From work bounded by ethics and principles to work where to
      be unprincipled and unethical is the rule of the game.
 
 I entered the world of pharmaceuticals, and for some time I was
      transported to a world of illusion. Big money, expensive cars, luxurious
      hotels and moving in the circle of the rich – I told myself I had
      finally made it. It just felt good not to have to live on a pittance pay
      and on top of that to have control of my work time. I remember not going
      home earlier than nine in the evening every day when I was a teacher and
      waking up early at five in
      the morning to go to work. But in my new job I could sleep late
      in the morning, and by nine pm I would already be out dining at
      some expensive restaurant somewhere. It was liberation.
 
 And the job was easy. You only have to convince doctors to prescribe your
      company’s drugs, tell them your drug is the most effective and most
      safe. Never mind if in the product training provided by the company you
      were told of the many side effects that the drug has. The side effects
      information was only on a need-to-know basis – meaning give it only when
      doctors ask or just tell the doctors to look into the product literature -
      aware of course that doctors do not have the time to do that.
 
 Medical representatives are the most knowledgeable about the drugs they
      promote. They know that most of the drugs on the market do not really have
      any business being there. Take attapulgites, to mention only one group of
      drugs. They are earning millions of dollars for drug companies but are
      actually killing people and not helping them. These medicines are supposed
      to stop you from having diarrhoea but diarrhoea is not supposed to be
      stopped because it is a natural cleansing of the body’s toxins. To
      manage diarrhoea, you only have to make sure that your body does not get
      dehydrated, so you need to drink plenty of liquids. Still, attapulgies are
      number one in the money chart. As medical representatives, we know of
      drugs that create side effects and other drugs marketed that are suppose
      to deal with such side effects. I would not be surprised if this was the
      case with Gulf War Syndrome. After all for drug companies, the ultimate
      goal is profit.
 
 I was so good at my job that in 2003, I was awarded the Medical
      Representative of the Year Award, besting thousands of medical
      representatives. A few months after, I was promoted to a managerial
      position. For five years I lived the good life or what I thought was the
      good life.
 
 Then unexpectedly my life took a ninety-degree turn. It started when I was
      invited by a friend to get involved in his work with the grassroots. I was
      asked to help set up a community-managed drug store. I do not know about
      helping but I saw it as a market opportunity so I accepted the invitation.
      Little did I know, this was to bring me back to the road of caring work.
      My encounter with the grassroots, the people I promised as a kid to serve
      as a doctor when I grew up are the same people who would soon make me
      remember that promise and would challenge me to live it. In one community
      that we visited, I remember talking to a young mother carrying a visibly
      malnourished child. I learned most of the family money was spent on
      medicines for her husband who was suffering from tuberculosis. I was not
      surprised when she told me the name of the medicine her husband was
      taking. It was one of those drugs I helped to get a big slice of the
      market. At that moment, I do not know what came over me but I heard myself
      telling her to use the money for food instead because tuberculosis is more
      a question of nutrition than disease. I soon heard similar stories again
      and again. What do you do when you come face to face with the truth that
      the good life you are living is paid for by people who have to give up
      food so you can live well? Some people may be able to live with that
      thought but many sleepless nights told me I could not. It did not take
      long before I decided to resign from work. My colleagues and friends, on
      learning of my decision, branded me a fool. I had worked so hard to get to
      the top only to give it up once I was there. Maybe I was a fool if being a
      fool is refusing to be a party to exploitation and genocide against the
      poor, mostly women who do caring work for their family, all in the name of
      money.
 
 My experience is a telling tale that refusing to kill is not only a call
      to people directly involved in the genocidal military war machine. It is a
      call to all of us to examine our lives and see whether we are party to
      having people lose their lives, whether this be by our action or our
      inaction, and to take a decisive step on the road to caring and not
      killing.
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